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Posthaste (2001​-​2012)

by Val Emmich

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1.
I want to catch a comet With my own bare hands Then just send it flying All over again Be a part of something I can’t understand I want to be a child again... (My father's ten feet tall as strong as superman) A child again... (My mother’s tender kiss could mend a broken hand) When magic was king And the world was a ball on a string I knew everything I want some animation To set my mind ablaze I want my older brother To lead my mind astray My parachute umbrella It'll help me land I want to be a child again... (My fathers ten feet tall as strong as superman) A child again... (My mother’s tender kiss could mend a broken hand) When magic was king And the world was a ball on a string I knew everything I knew everything
2.
Try and get ahead Success at any cost Be careful what you leave behind It may be your pride You are heading for a life that isn't yours You are giving up all the things that you love When you're time is up in a speeding car Will you like what you find? You still have time to get it right It's so easy to waste Regret has an awful taste So lie in the bed you make And try to sleep well You are heading for a life that isn't yours You are giving up all the things that you love When you're time is up in a speeding car Will you like what you find? You still have time to get it right You still have time... You still have time... You still have time... ...to get it right.
3.
They walk the walk They dress the dress Know how to talk Play hard to get If there’s something more I haven’t seen it yet But you’re nothing from a magazine Your clothes are wrong You talk while you eat You’re not well read You watch bad TV You came and conquered me overnight No big production, no neon signs Just you being no one but you I’ve waited for you a very long time A state of panic's what I've grown to know But you keep your balance on your tippy-toes You came and conquered me overnight No bells, no baggage, no little white lies Just you being nothing but you I’ve waited for you a very long time So many try it, so few get it right I’ve waited for you a very long time
4.
This grey room This bunker The air is humming Us to sleep While outside The city hurry The endless worry Is out of reach Promise me you’ll never leave this room A million years from now would be too soon The world is spinning turning day to night And my thoughts are running at the speed of light Got an empty feeling that I never want to fill Absolutely still I waited longer cuz I needed proof That every door I shut’s leading me to you And there’s a nervous feeling that I never want to kill Absolutely still We were running From the same noise We were stuck in The same pursuit Now the door’s locked I find that The dizzy madness Is bleeding thru Promise me you’ll never leave this room A million years from now would be too soon The world is spinning turning day to night And my thoughts are running at the speed of light Got an empty feeling that I never want to fill Absolutely still I waited longer cuz I needed proof That every door I shut’s leading me to you And there’s a nervous feeling that I never want to kill Absolutely still I’ll go anywhere you want tonight Cuz my head is spinning like a satellite I got a restless feeling that i never want to fill I’m absolutely still
5.
Turn on the TV Open a magazine Follow the pretty feet Right down Prince Street You are what I want, you are what I want (yeah) You are what I want, you are what I want (yeah) Like a kid in a candy store I want more and more and more All the pretty girls Oh they run this world Sense makes no sense When faced with beauty so intense I am hypnotized By the products they advertised The cold blue eyes It’s you I want to buy You are what I want, you are what I want (yeah) You are what I want, you are what I want (yeah) I am so ashamed I buy into the dirty game All the pretty girls Oh they run this world Sense makes no sense When faced with beauty so intense You are what I want, you are what I want (yeah) You are what I want, you are what I want (yeah)
6.
All The Time 03:01
One too many lies And you run out of places to hide Yeah, it's true that a part of you dies What was sin is now a casual crime You're burning both ends And you can't tell your friends And it's lonely So lonely It's too hard to stop Cuz there's never enough You're still hungry So hungry All the time It's a modern disease The desire for more than anyone needs But still there's nobody to blame You alone you have to choke on the shame It's dark to go back You don't know where you're at And it's empty So empty There's no choice to make You don't care what they say Cuz you're hungry So hungry All the time You don't know why All the time
7.
Answers 03:36
Step by step through Henley square The smell of fire is everywhere When I look back A cloud of smoke It follows me where I go I’m losing limbs I’m losing faith I’m losing her I’m losing weight The questionnaire It’s still blank She’s asking me But I can’t say She’s asking me But i can’t say Been walking aimlessly Disconnected from my feet Disconnected from the whole I've been searching high and low For the answers I already know Grab a bite More than I can chew I’m feeling things I can’t compute An endless hole is threatening If I don’t watch It’ll swallow me Take me now by the throat Tell me things that I don’t know Been walking aimlessly Disconnected from my feet Disconnected from the whole I've been searching high and low For the answers I already know Here the whole time Right before my eyes I keep spinning in circles Faster and faster Been walking aimlessly Disconnected from my feet Disconnected from the whole I've been searching high and low For the answers I already know For the answers I already know
8.
A shiny apple with a worm inside That's kind of how I've come to see this life Never know what you get until you take a bite Think you bit off more than you can chew this time Black-and-white photographs ingrained inside the tissues in my brain I fall asleep but still the images remain I can't erase, I can't forget The memories, the past regrets These things are haunting me These things I want to forget Your past encounters were the jagged knife That carved your mindset and shaped your life You are a product of nature's mess It's hard to accept, it's so hard to feel blessed Black-and-white photographs ingrained inside the tissues in my brain I fall asleep but still the images remain I can't erase, I can't forget The memories, the past regrets These things are haunting me These things I want to forget I don't blame you for it I don't blame you for it I don't blame you I don't want my every move in life to be because of it I can understand I can understand what made you do it I just gotta find a way to scare away the thought of it Black-and-white photographs ingrained inside the tissues in my brain I fall asleep but still the images remain I can't erase, I can't forget The memories, the past regrets These things are haunting me These things I want to forget I can't erase, I can't forget The memories, the past regrets These things are haunting me These things I want to forget
9.
Cut to me in a week I will evaporate Roll down the sink I wish I could cry Feel relief All my real feelings trapped inside of me So I turn to words Spit them out In the hopes that someone Will come help me out I can't fit food down my mouth Walking around in a cloud What can I do to get back to you? Send me a clue Board a plane Drive my car I doubt that either would get me far Cuz I don't know if I can change But you know that I don't want to stay the same I watch as the birds fly south Soon the snow hits the ground Missing the warmth that I felt in your arms Now you are gone Remember this: I will miss Your powdery scent and your selfless kiss So I run from the thoughts in my head The memories of things that are dead I can't go home cuz I'd die there alone I can't go home cuz I'd die there alone And so I roam So I roam
10.
I’m not afraid of dying Not afraid of what comes next I don’t fear the Reaper I don’t fear the end I’m not afraid of zealots Not afraid of war Bombs or explosions Or a nuclear downpour I’m not afraid of guns Not afraid of crime I don’t fear my brother We’re all equal all the time Every move Every step I’m in no danger Nothing’s happened yet No red flags Nothing’s wrong Calm come quick I can’t keep this up for long I’m not afraid of failure I don’t fear success I don’t fear rejection I don’t fear regret I’m not afraid of falling Not afraid of love I don’t fear commitment Or giving myself up Not afraid of sickness Not afraid of growing old I’m not afraid of karma Or all the lies I’ve told Every move Every step Every single second A possible regret No alarms Nothing’s wrong Calm come quick I can’t keep this up for long Calm come quick
11.
Once again I’ve hit the wall Where the list of options gets so small But I have seen the other side I won’t cower, I won’t hide I’ll get there if i have to crawl You will not catch up to me I’ll keep moving when you sleep I’ve got a sickness And there ain’t no cure for me Better bring in the cavalry Cuz I don’t shake and I don’t bleed I'm a whisper of an ancient melody So come and get me My eyes are open big and wide Just got one thing in my sights I don’t care how far or long If it’s just to prove you wrong I’ll take pleasure in the fight You will not catch up to me I’ll keep moving when you sleep I’ve got a sickness And there ain’t no cure for me Better bring in the cavalry Cuz I don’t shake and I don’t bleed I'm a whisper of an ancient melody So come and get me So come and get me
12.
We are in the air With no parachutes And neither one of us has a clue How we got this high Our biggest fear is falling down I don't know how to fly this thing So if you're scared then you should be Crash landing I want you to burn with me You are so fucking cute When you are under stress And you're hanging on to me As if I know what I'm doing But I don't I don't know how to fly this thing So if you're scared well you should be Crash landing I want you to burn with me Understand me I'm ready to admit defeat We talk about our love more than anyone I know Maybe it's overdone but we just want to get it right If one of us should fall and tumble The other one would follow Cuz this time it's equal Spinning out of control Both of us incredulous Spinning out of control Both of us we are ready Spinning out of control Both of us we are helpless
13.
Drag It On 02:58
Baby hold that thought I give up before the battle is fought Yeah I'm waving the flag I surrender and I'm not even mad I just want the talking to stop I only want the charges dropped I don't need to be the one who's right I just want to say goodnight Come on...baby let's be honest It's gone...everything we promised It's wrong...to drag this on Come on...let's drag it on It's a common mistake We ignore the little things we hate Till we finally break A smile is just too heavy to fake I'm tired and I want to get out I forgot what we were fighting about Maybe you and I are the same Neither one of us can change Come on...baby let's be honest It's gone...everything we promised It's wrong..to drag this on Come on...let's drag it on On and on and on and on Pretending that there's nothing On and on for way too long I might finally love you when you're gone Come on...baby let's be honest It's gone...all the lies we promised It's wrong..to drag this on Come on...let's drag it on On and on and on and on Pretending that there's nothing wrong On and on and on and on Pretending that I'll love you when you're gone Pretending that I'll love you Come on...let's drag it on
14.
Elliot 02:24
In my head I had a picture of a situation a lot like this I would go and blow it all for just one glimpse of a less predictable, more tragic twist I owe you an apology for letting you believe this time the hope would lead me I've gone and blown it all for just one glimpse of a less predictable, more tragic twist I'm sorry In my head I had a picture of a situation a lot like this
15.
Fine Dining 05:22
I can see now where I got lost So many lines I should have crossed Now I know what I could have done Now I know I should have In all those films that we saw Were the guidelines of love so raw Now I know how it works Now I know how I could have kept you I wanna eat with you in a nice restaurant Take you someplace and treat you right Wanna buy you a dress to wear Wanna watch you wash and style your hair Wanna hold your hand too hard Wanna see your neck shine across the table Wanna lead you to the floor Ask you to dance for the very first time Wanna spin you around, put you on display Then pull you in tight, show everyone it’s okay To feel how we feel To be who we are We were lost but that was okay It’s a lot easier when two people feel that way Now I’m lost without you I see all the simple things I could have done to hold onto you I wanna pick you up and ride Wanna drive at careless speeds With the music too loud so we can’t speak But I know exactly what you’re trying to say to me Be here with me now Just be here with me now I wish you would call me I wish you would call me now
16.
From Afar 02:15
I see you everywhere But we never meet I see you everywhere But we never speak There you are from afar Making me shake There you are beautiful Making me ache Girl oh, what I would do with your love Oh, what I would do with your love If you were mine time would fly over our heads If you were mine we could lie all day in bed Everyday, every way, swallow you up Everyday, every way, ready to fuck Girl oh, what I would do with your love Oh, what I would do with your love No one would know We'd keep it on the down low Our little secret It might be hard To keep our voices low If we're acting like animals You convey in subtle ways You feel the same You convey in subtle ways You feel the same Everytime I look at you You're looking at me Girl oh, what I would do with your love Oh, what I would do with your love Your love
17.
Imagine a perfect scene Palm trees and a blissful breeze I'm in the corner hugging my knees Unable to forget my worries There's no peace to my mind My worst fear is more free time Cuz it leaves me here to wrestle my thoughts A restlessness that hurries my heart It's hard to explain but I need you the way A sunny day needs a little rain It's hard to explain but I need you the way A one-man boat needs a tidal wave To come on strong and blow me away Blow me away I am more at ease when life is crazy I salivate for catastrophes They take my mind away from me My butterflies are asleep So come on and wake them for me I crave the kind of nervousness That makes me feel alive and anxious It's hard to explain but I need you the way A sunny day needs a little rain It's hard to explain but I need you the way A one-man boat needs a tidal wave To come on strong and blow me away Blow me away There's no peace to my mind My worst fear is more free time Cuz it leaves me here to wrestle my thoughts A restlessness that hurries my heart I need you the way A sunny day needs a little rain It's hard to explain but I need you the way A one-man boat needs a tidal wave To come on strong and blow me away Blow me away
18.
Head On Fire 03:16
Why'd you set my head on fire? I was safe and calm living my life Why'd you set my head on fire? All the noise distracted me just fine I don't mind the volume loud The only way I know how to get by Is to live life in a cloud Fill my head with petty matters So finish what you started Burn away the static in me I'm waiting Glad you set my head on fire I created perpetual sunshine Glad you set my head on fire I wore a disguise of sugary smiles I was such a clever liar But there is beauty where the plainest truth resides And now I've got my head on fire Fill my life with all that matters So finish what you started Burn away the static in me I'm waiting So leave me with just the truth I'm ready to take the leap I'm ready to fall And I'm ready to see What this means after all So finish what you started Burn away the static in me I'm waiting So lead me I'm waiting Finish what you started Burn away the static in me I'm waiting Glad you set my head on fire Cuz I've been living so long without you
19.
Heavy 03:40
You're the gun I'm your aim I'm the hand that's set in place You're the nervous shake You're a jump from a plane I'm the parachute you take You're a big mistake You're not good for me But you're what I need So heavy You weigh on my mind like an answer That I'm too dumb to find A disaster You're the hunter and you set the bait That I'm fool enough to take You're the spins late at night After cigarettes and wine I'm sobriety You're too much I'm not enough You're a threat And I'm a bluff It's neutrality You're not good for me But you're what I need So heavy You weigh on my mind like an answer That I'm too dumb to find A disaster You're the hunter and you set the bait That I'm fool enough to take You are all that I've wanted You are everything I am not You are all that I've wanted The only honest thing that I have got Heavy You weigh on my mind like an answer That I'm too dumb to find A disaster You're the hunter and you set the bait So heavy You're the answer that I'm trying to find Disaster I watch as you're moving away And I'm fool to wait You're a trip without a map And I don't know my way back
20.
Follow the street till you and I meet Back to the place just out of reach Heads in space, lying on the concrete I feel so far from where I wanted to be The heir to nothing Nervous, looking for something better An heir to nothing Never wanting what I already have Follow where the circle leads Round and round, I'm never free Never where I want to be Today I feel like a bag of dry leaves Light a match let the fire breathe A cloud of smoke catches a breeze And just like that I'm nothing to see The heir to nothing Nervous, looking for something better An heir to nothing Never wanting what I already have Follow where the circle leads Round and round, I'm never free Never where I want to be I'm running in place In a figure 8 I'm never where I want to be Or who I ever thought I'd be Anything but anything, that's me Follow the street till you and I meet Back to the place just out of reach The heir to nothing Nervous, looking for something better The heir to nothing Never wanting what I already have Follow where the circle leads Round and round, I'm never free The heir to nothing Never where I want to be
21.
Right from the start This was never fair and equal This was never fair and equal No way I wait for your love Like a desert waits for water Like a desert waits for water But I know that it won't ever rain I am your heart I am beating, I am bleeding, I am feeding you Fast as you need me to I never stop, never quit, never skip a beat No I never sleep Cuz I am your heart I am yours all the time I am driving you Hold up the sky for you Work all alone in the dark Just to pull you through So why am I the one who needs you? Say what you want You were never really in this You were never really in this Were you I waited for your love This was never going nowhere This was never going nowhere Now I know that you won't ever change You'll never feel the same I am your heart I am beating, I am bleeding, I am feeding you Fast as you need me to I never stop, never quit, never miss a beat No I never sleep Cuz I am your heart I am yours all the time I am driving you Hold up the sky for you Work all alone in the dark Just to pull you through So why am I the one who needs you? I am your heart I'm the one that needs you
22.
I just lost my father Said he didn't understand me Said I'm breaking up the family Got no responsibility I just told my woman Said she could no longer wait for me She said it's better now than gradually She spoke painstakingly I just lost all feeling Like the world crashing down on me Like I'm falling off a balance beam Things ain't like they ought to be I'm dissected by a line Punctures my heart, trips up my mind Come on Lord, you're running out of time I just called my momma Asking what she thought of me Said that she ached for me Said she would pray for me So then I called my master That omniscient super being To come and set things right for me I just hope he acts swiftly I'm dissected by a line Punctures my heart, trips up my mind Come on Lord, you're running out of time Come on Lord Can't you make me happy?
23.
Shaken from my sleep Awake from a dream that is reality You appeared in front of me So suddenly I can’t explain The words flow thru my brain To the tip of my tongue And I’m afraid there is no way To say those words and not sound dumb I want to tell you But the beautiful terror makes me mute Is it too soon... To fall in love with you? Just fall in love with me I dare you Isn’t everybody hoping, waiting, searching for that one Now that you’re in front of me You better believe I won’t pass it up I know I don’t really know you But i know enough I know your voice I know your scent I know your cheeks turn purple plum I want to tell you But the beautiful terror makes me mute Is it too soon to fall in love with you? Just fall in love with me I dare you Is it too soon... To fall in love with you? Just fall in love with me I dare you Is it too soon... For me to follow you? Or for me to take the lead? Does it scare you? I don’t know just how I know But all I know is this is true I don’t know just how I know But all I know is it is you Is it too soon... To fall in love with you? Just fall in love with me I dare you Is it too soon... To fall in love? To fall in love with you With me With you Is it too soon? I dare you Does it scare you? I dare you
24.
Isolated 03:17
Warmth comes by keystroke Such cold comfort But I got a deep hope Of some pay dirt I'm in a tunnel Staying open is a chore My pocket phone vibrations Too easy to ignore I'm isolated…isolated… Alone with my thoughts it gets complicated I wanna see my friends And get reacquainted Cuz lately I've been way too isolated Vanessa writes me Her words they glow Wish she could find me So I'm not alone I'm in a funnel Been squeezing down to size A stranger's sweet reminders They're keeping me alive I'm isolated…isolated… Alone with my thoughts it gets complicated I wanna see my friends And get reacquainted Cuz lately I've been way too isolated You’ll have to dig for me Uncover twenty feet of Of Shame and self pity I'm living so lavishly So lonely and so... I'm isolated…isolated… Alone with my thoughts it gets complicated I wanna see my friends And get rejuvenated Cuz lately I've been way too isolated
25.
I've been struggling with your memory Of her head in my hands Right within my reach Now I feel like she's on the other side of the world And I have no appetite cuz my stomach's full of a girl Here comes a question Just a hypothetical Just a silly question It's dumb but here it goes If you were that girl What would you say If I told you that I needed to see you One night, one crazy night It occupies my mind Maybe I'm mistaken but I think it felt just right Next time I'll shave closer so I don't irritate your skin I promise not to snore at night If you would only let me in Here comes a question Just a hypothetical Just a silly question It's dumb but here it goes If you were that girl What would you say If I told you that I needed to see you If you were that girl What would you say If I told you that I need you I need you I need to see you So badly So badly
26.
Keep Running 03:38
Each time the bell chimes a guard clocks in With his back turned we’ll take turns murdering him And we’ll escape from this cage It’s our fate to run away Spotlights shining and sirens shout But in one week's time we’ll be too far out So get some sleep You are safe I will stay Wide awake I know you want to stop but you gotta keep running Bonnie and Clyde got nothing on us We got blood on our hands And in god we don’t trust There should be no doubt They’ll throw dirt over us But I got no regrets, It was freedom or bust I believed in you and you believed in me They believe in nothing They no longer dream One last kiss, one last breath We lived life full Cuz there’s no life after death
27.
I see you roll your eyes And shake your head I was full of hope You made me full of dread Why you wanna take the fun out? Why you wanna make it so hard? Why you drag your feet now? It's like pulling teeth out So this ain't what we planned It never is I'm trying best I can To stay positive Why you wanna take the fun out? Why you wanna make it so hard? Why you drag your feet now? It's like pulling teeth out
28.
Make It Up 04:02
I've reached a point Where I must choose Between two opposing views Which way to go Better take it slow But it's more fun To jump the gun Leave no time to think Cuz it only confuses things So I'm making it up Up as I go Funny how nobody even knows So wherever this leads It's fine with me Cuz I'm done with worrying Check the pros and cons All the rights and wrongs In the end it makes no difference Which way to go Better take it slow But it's more fun to jump the gun Leave no time to think Cuz it only confuses things So I'm making it up Up as I go Funny how nobody even knows So wherever this leads It's fine with me Cuz I'm done with worrying I'll have plenty of time to think When I am done doing what I feel Plenty of time to think When I'm done rushing into things So I'm making it up Up as I go Funny how nobody even knows So wherever this leads It's fine with me Cuz I'm done with worrying Cuz I'm done Make it up
29.
Melt The Ice 03:38
I have been frozen Through four seasons Then you arrived To save my life Your eyes melt the ice Way down underneath Where the sun cannot reach Your laser beam It found me Your eyes melt the ice Feels so nice Feels so right Your eyes melt the ice
30.
I ran home from school so fast I nearly fell down I told my momma I met a girl on the playground One word to me she never spoke But we took turns using the Tarzan rope I was in love…was in love…was in love…I thought so It was love…it was love…it was love…I know so Then I met a girl in grade school, she was pretty She had eyes so piercing blue they made me dizzy She never raised her hand in class Even though she got the highest grades in math I was in love…was in love…was in love…I thought so It was love…it was love…it was love…I know so Then I met my first Jewish girl in tenth grade I told my dad that I met an exotic girl from a far off place He told me she was the same as me Although her family was probably more wealthy I was in love…was in love…was in love…I thought so It was love…it was love…it was love…I know so Then I met a girl through a friend of mine named Jaimee Who studied abroad in Spain with her friend Lonni She bought me a slice of pizza and She ordered it in Spanish from a Mexican I was in love…was in love…was in love…I thought so It was love…it was love…it was love…I know so Then I met a girl I swear I knew my whole life When I touched her hand it didn’t feel like the first time My momma told me it was true: “You spend you’re whole life finding what’s right for you” So I put it in a song for my wedding day I thought it was a good way to finally say I’ve been in love…been in love…been in love…with you Been in love…been in love...long before I even met you I’ve been in love…been in love…with the idea of you Imagine my surprise when I finally found you
31.
My bear’s in captivity He begs me to set him free When he's not here I'm filled with fear Cuz ever since he got captured I'm no longer a threat I was a child with animal thirst Now second guessing instead comes first I try Yes I try But the fear keeps coming Fear keeps coming Fear keeps coming back My bear keeps gnashing his teeth Tries to appear threatening But it’s never real No it’s never real It's like a cow in a pasture I'm no longer a threat My passivity’s hindering me Today my bear will again be set free I try Yes I try But the fear keeps coming Fear keeps coming Fear keeps coming back My bear's in captivity He begs me to set him free My bear's in captivity My bear keeps gnashing his teeth My bear's in captivity Tries to appear threatening He begs me to set him free
32.
Somewhere past the lump in my throat Is a word I can't pronounce It has the power to give some meaning to The silence that's surrounding the both of us My first time Your last time Your heart's tired But my arms are wide Caution, hesitate When love shows its eager face You escape cuz you've been burned once or twice before But I'm here to kickstart your heart with my electric attitude My first time Your last time Your heart's tired But my arms are wide Love aches but there ain't no other way Somewhere past the lump in my throat Is a word I wan to announce But I'm here to kickstart your heart with my electric attitude My first time Your last time Your heart's tired But my arms are wide Your last time You almost died We can get this right Just give it a try Love aches but there ain't no other way It's a price I'm willing to pay For your love
33.
Next Time 05:00
Driving away from the city Back to Jersey And there is no single part of me That's ready for this journey Cuz I feel like I'm walking away From something really special A book I'm dying to read But the darkness makes it impossible So the next time I'm by your side I won't just watch you Walk out of my life Will I ever find you? Now I find myself in a very difficult spot On that Friday night I remembered life is not Something you can plan Or something you can predict All you can do is take it and run with it So the next time I'm by your side I won't just watch you Walk out of my life Will I ever find you?
34.
No Sound 03:28
Wait for the taxi to arrive While we plan for our goodbye I wait too long I wait as long as you could ever want to wait I still care enough to care This hurts like hell I get drunk and wish you well No sound Silence all around us Breakdown What I want to say is to loud Everything I want to tell you falls Falls between us now I could offer you a gift Like a mountain or a city You're not one You're not one to stretch it out when it is done You don't care enough to care This hurts like hell Don't you try to wish me well No sound Silence all around us Breakdown What I want to say is to loud Everything I want to tell you falls Falls between us now Tell me Where you wanna go? Tell me I really want to know Tell me I don't think you know No sound Silence all around us Breakdown What I want to say is to loud Everything you want and all you are Stays between us now Where you wanna go? I don't think you know This hurts like hell Where you wanna go? This hurts like hell
35.
Pterodactyl 03:38
On a swing with the sun overhead That's when the pterodactyl landed on her sleeve Oh the weight that she had to bear She cried, "Why is this happening to me?" And she struggled to walk straight But soon she found a way And when it was leaving It was strange, she wished it would stay She said, "Come back home" Years went by and she never forgot About that pterodactyl landed on her sleeve Oh what luck, divine interplay Made her what she is today Now she speaks of the burden as if it was a gift And she can't shake the longing for that moment everything clicked She said, "Come back home" A slow motion playback of a time that went by too fast And she swears if there's a next time She will know, be quick to react She says, "Come back home"
36.
Replaceable 03:44
Breathe in the air And choke on the guilt None of us deserve What those before us built Cuz we sell ourselves At bargain costs While a million lookalikes Could come and do our jobs And we wouldn't feel robbed Everyone's replaceable You don't produce, someone will As for me, I lose my breathe And take it all too serious I want to make a real attempt To have a home no one can rent A spot that's mine and mine alone A life that lives beyond a song There's so much more Than we leave time for It's over in a blink You better push life to the brink Cuz you're gonna have to die It's a fact you can't deny Before you are erased You better go and stake your claims Do it today Everyone's replaceable You don't produce, someone will As for me, I lose my breathe And take it all too serious I want to make a real attempt To have a home no one can rent A spot that's mine and mine alone A life that lives beyond a song The sooner that we all see That we're nothing The quicker we can move on Everyone's replaceable You don't produce, someone will As for me, I lose my breathe And take it all too serious I want to make a real attempt To have a home no one can rent A spot that's mine and mine alone A life that lives beyond a song Everyone Everyone's replaceable
37.
Same Place 03:42
Let the trigger go Put your weapons down Time to contemplate It’s not who you know It’s not what you do It’s not what you make Oh, water’s running down every single drain Chemicals react in you and me the same now You gotta take a breath You can’t separate Why you wanna run me out of town? Why you wanna wear each other down? Why you wanna run this like a race? No matter how you get there All of us are going to the same place You’re on a sugar high Put your soda down Decarbonate All your present needs Will make your future bleed They can all wait Oh, Kelly knows a Richard, Richard knows a Jane Jane knows a Marcus, Marcus is the same guy That you used to be Don’t look away Why you wanna run us out of town? Why you wanna wear each other down? Why you wanna treat this like a race? All of us are going All of us are going to the same place Water’s running down every single drain Chemicals react in you and me the same now You gotta take a break Why you wanna run us out of town? Why you gonna wear each other down? Why you wanna treat this like a race? Both of us are going Both of us are going to the same place Why you wanna wear each other down?
38.
Sidesteppin 03:00
She's been waiting for a heart attack Some man to come & knock her on her back And it doesn't seem to matter she's already attached Her man at home, he's as blind as a bat So she's sidesteppin She's sidesteppin now He calls home, he'll be back pretty late Got a big, big project that he can't delay But he's not at the office, he's out on a date With a 6'1" blonde he met Saturday He's sidesteppin He's sidesteppin now We're all sidesteppin All sidesteppin now Are you home feeling all alone? With the same old Joe, no electric flow? Don't fear, a solution's here Erase all your debt with a tête-à-tête All sidesteppin All sidesteppin No one's happy in the place they're in Everyone's peeking at their neighbor's garden No way to fight it cuz it's in our bones Made to wander, we were born to roam We're all sidesteppin All sidesteppin now We're all sidesteppin All sidesteppin now I'm so tired of love wearing out When it begins, so fierce, so loud But then it fades I get the urge to step out I should say goodbye Cut it off clean Instead of sneaking around But I'm in boredom up to my neck Walking straight is a lifeless trek I ain't found a love worth saving yet I'm sidesteppin next chance I get
39.
Sleep Here 03:04
Sleep here tonight Please don't leave my side I promise not to bite If you promise to stay the night
40.
I need you to tell me Which way is up and down I have no answers I’ve lost the ones I found just when I get off the ground Something always happens To deny me Something always happens Pulls me under you I want to trust you…. I can’t control this it leaves me short of breath Random and wreckless We’re such a pretty mess just when I regain my senses Something always happens To deny me Something always happens Pulls me under you I wanted you Endlessly Straight-ahead And trouble free I wanted love But nothing’s free Something always happens To deny me Something always happens Pulls me under you
41.
This is really turning into something Maybe something good A flicker of an image sparks inside of my mind Like a meadow in a ghetto Tossed with lemon and lime This is really turning into something Maybe something good I describe the feeling like a giant fish I'm reeling in (This is really turning into something Maybe something good) Butterflies are fleeing down a hole inside the ceiling now (This is really turning into something Maybe something good) Contrary to opinion, I have 20/20 eyes And the doc he says I'm healthy for my age & my size This is really turning into something Maybe something good Forces keep plotting against me As words leave my mouth they're misunderstood I'm nothing, not no one, nobody Just trying to carve up my mind like wood Form a shape that is hopeful and helpful Become what I always knew that I could Something good Something Contrary to opinion, I have 20/20 eyes And the doc he says I'm healthy for my age & my size This is really turning into something Maybe something good
42.
You and me Meant to be Immutable Impossible It's destiny Pure lunacy Incalculable Insufferable But for the last time You're everything that I want and ask for You're all that I've dreamed Who wouldn't be the one you love? Who wouldn't stand inside your love? A pure soul And beautiful You Don't understand Don't feel me now I will breathe For the both of us Travel the world Traverse the skies Your home is here Within my heart And for the first time I feel as though I am reborn In my mind Recast as child and mystic sage Who wouldn't be the one you love? Who wouldn't stand inside your love? And for the first time I'm telling you how much I need and bleed for Your every move and waking sound In my time I'll wrap my wire around your heart and your mind You're mine forever now Who wouldn't be the one you love and live for? Who wouldn't stand inside your love and die for? Who wouldn't be the one you love?
43.
There Is You 02:55
When all my ideas And all my big plans Clumsily fall through the palm of my hands There is you Then there is you When they build me up You tear me down So when their interest wanes It's not far to the ground Clever you Lucky for you How did I get by before you came? How did I survive before you came? When I lose the map Stuck in a maze You write me letters And tell me which way I should choose To get back to you When I lose the spark Choke my own throat You sing along to the words that I wrote They sound new Coming from you They sound new All thanks to you I feel new Thank god for you
44.
Dishes in the sink Bills left unpaid Clothes spread on the floor Phonecalls ignored My life can't proceed until your next to me I will hold this one breath inside my chest till you let me breathe When I'm in your presence Only the present has meaning And the rest of time dissolves And I could die in your arms Too many cigarettes Endless shaking fits Vodka before bed Nails bitten red This isn't me But it's all that I can be Without you I am groundless Have no balance on my own two feet When I'm in your presence Only the present has meaning And the rest of time dissolves And I could die in your arms Come and rescue me I am begging please There is you and there is chaos One or the other No in-betweens When I'm in your presence Only the present matters to me And the rest of time dissolves And I could die in your arms When I'm in your presence Only the present has meaning And the rest of time dissolves And I could die in your arms
45.
Time Ticks 03:37
There is no proper picture frame That could capture this display More than a feeling It's a smell A particular taste Like water down the drain Drops of life just flush away Our hands get wet But 99% gets away Time ticks Everything explodes into bits of memory The moment we're in is paper thin Footsteps Please don't walk away from me yet The moonlight crashes on your face And it makes me feel safe A slow motion serenade Where not one second goes to waste And every whisper is exactly what you wanted to say Like a shotgun to the face Of every clock that sets the pace We're suspended in a black hole kind of embrace Time ticks Everything explodes into bits of memory The moment we're in is paper thin Footsteps Please don't walk away from me yet The moonlight crashes on your face And it makes me feel safe Stay right here with me Pretty please Time ticks Everything explodes into bits of memory The moment we're in is paper thin Footsteps Please don't walk away from me yet The moonlight crashes on your face And it makes me feel safe
46.
When did you arrive? Cuz I missed your entrance I can't believe my eyes They're stinging with passion You picked a really bad time To walk into my life I'm trying to leave With my conscience clean It's not easy resisting your energy If there's a god He sent you to tempt me You're doing a really good job Want to pick from your fruit tree Another glass of wine And I start to cross the line I'm trying to leave With my conscience clean It's not easy resisting your energy You're way to heavy For my weak knees It's not easy resisting your energy I want you I'm trying to leave But it's hard to ignore you I'm trying I'm trying I want you
47.
Warning 03:40
Everybody tries to tell the youth: "Live life to the fullest. Make every moment count, Cuz life is short and precious." How come it never sinks in? No matter how hard we're listening No matter how hard we concentrate We only learn the hard way So thanks for the warning But it don't change nothing Thanks for the warning But it don't change nothing I drive way too fast Kill someone in a car crash I know it's not impossible To put someone in the hospital How come it never sinks in? No matter how hard we're listening No matter how hard we concentrate We only learn the hard way So thanks for the warning But it don't change nothing Thanks for the warning But it don't change nothing Yeah we think we're so clever Yeah we think we're so clever Yeah we think we're so clever But one day we'll know better
48.
As the bruises on her back start festering She wonders what she ever saw in him Just when escape seems a worthwhile feat She worries that her kids won’t have enough to eat It’s the difference ‘tween what she wants and what she needs He’s got four weeks vacation & the benefits are nice But every single morning he prays the sun won’t shine He’ll make less money if he follows his dream But at the end of the day it’s just a smaller TV It’s the difference 'tween what he wants and what he needs We can build those fences high to keep them out But who among us gonna pick those berries now Either we raise those wages and the company bleeds Or learn to live with less and plant those seeds It’s the difference 'tween what we want and what we need I put my headphones up real loud to shut them out They’ve been yelling so long they forgot what they were fighting about They swore they’d stay together for the family But now they’re signing papers choosing who gets me It’s the difference ‘tween what they want and what each one needs You said it would be forever rain or shine But now she takes pills daily to balance out her mind With the women at work you flirt and tease But she’ll never survive if you decide to leave It’s the difference ‘tween what you want and what she needs I got something on my mind I need to say I've been in love with you since we met that fateful day And when you went away I could barely breathe It made me realize what you mean to me You are what I want, you”re what I need There’s no difference ‘tween what I want and what I need
49.
I should think before I speak Says the dunce to the queen Guess another apology is pretty weak Well maybe you own part of the blame Maybe you were too quick to break You know better than to fall for me You know better than to fall to your knees All my pets die tragically You know better than to fall for me I tore you apart But it wasn’t my design You could have walked away I could have been kind Maybe you saw what you wanted to see Maybe I wanted you to believe You know better than to fall for me You know better than to fall to your knees All my pets die tragically You know better than to fall for me You saw what you wanted to see You saw what you wanted to see You took what you needed from me But I needed some room to breathe
50.
I see them on your tongue The words like a loaded gun But you can't get it done Just say the words What's done is done You say the timing's wrong You need to be alone You serve me every food Except the truth Accept the truth Honey, just shut your mouth and speak to me Do you ever say what you really mean? No, you only make it worse You wanna make it hurt the worst I'm a dog still on your leash Being dragged some fifty feet You gotta cut me free The two of us Just let it be Just shut your mouth and speak to me Do you ever say what you really mean? No, you only make it worse You wanna make it hurt the worst Just make the cut and let me bleed Anything's better than the in between Do you ever say what you really mean? You only make it worse You wanna make it hurt the worst Just make the cut Just shut your mouth and speak to me Do you ever say what you really mean? No, you only make it worse You wanna make it hurt the worst Just make the cut and let me bleed Cuz anything's better than the in between You only make it worse You wanna make it hurt the worst

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50-SONG BOX SET:
Unreleased outtakes, demos, covers & rarities from the first 11 years.
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+ 10 BONUS TRACKS
(when you download the full album)
1) Decadent Decline (Rock Version)
2) Rather Be Lonely (Rock Version)
3) Get On With It (Acoustic)
4) This Ship's Going Down (Woodstock Version)
5) Boy Who Cried Wolf (Live in San Jose)
6) Bury Me (Live in Portland)
7) Hurt More Later (Live in New York)
8) First Try (Live in Asbury Park)
9) The Patient Patient (Live in San Diego)
10) Shock (Live in San Diego)
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released December 4, 2012

Album art by Gemma Savage.

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Val Emmich Jersey City, New Jersey

Singer-Songwriter / Novelist / Actor

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